MIDTERMZ

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I'm going to take my math midterms tomorrow. Along with the rest of the Math18a&b. Wish us luck (I definitely need it). And instead of studying my butt off today (no class... woot) I chose to lounge around instead. My stash of food is diminishing at an alarmingly fast pace, leaving me to wonder if I will make it to the end of the week before totally running out. My desk is already twice as messy, as the Asus EEE + mouse + keyboard was joined with sample math tests, a math book, and piles and PILES of scratch paper. I had solved my scratch paper problem about a week ago (I never seemed to have enough) by solving math problems on my photocopied Filipino readings. I'm threating to expand my territory to the LIT readings as well. (oh noes!) I take up a lot of space while solving, you see, for, in addition to my rather large script, I often dive into a problem before properly examining it, hence resulting in a paper that is 80% erasure, 20% solution.

oh crep. I take pity on the unlucky professor who gets to check my oh-so-NEAT and ORGANIZED paper.

One more thing - I wanted to avoid math as much as possible, and so I workED on the CS project.

St00pid, st00pid me.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Upper left corner.

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This is an Lit 13. Requirement. Posted it for kicks. Enjoy.

I am a very territorial person – I want my space and room to be defined clearly, such that any person passing by my space will know to whom it belongs. I've always felt uncomfortable when people move my things or when they even touch them. I've always liked things where they were; that is, where I put them.

Fate decided to toy with me, however. My whole family shared a single room. It was big enough to be counted as two bedrooms, but the design was to optimize the airconditioning capacity of the airconditioning unit. :D My parents occupied half, and my sister and I occupied the second half, a large white cabinet serving as the wall in between. There was only one long table where we could study, and only one other counter in which we can dump stuff on. The only space that I could messy up with nobody bothering me to do otherwise was the top bunk of the double decked bed me and my sister shared. It was a small space, but I loved it.

My beddings would change every 2-3 weeks or so, but I always picture my bed in bright checkered cloth – an old bed sheet from when I was still a kid. The wall in which I could prop up myself against was adorned with religious pictures – remnants of calendars we would get from the church. Above me was an exhaust fan which purpose was to drain the afternoon heat – but so far it only succeeded in disturbing my concentration. Near my feet lay a few issues Reader's Digest magazines dated anywhere between 1997 – 1999. Sometimes, a few library books would join their company. I would read those on boring afternoons when sleep would not come; I had exhausted all the books in the house, after all.

On hectic school days, the foot of my bed would be filled with half-finished homework, HUGE textbooks (usually Biology and Chemistry texts), and a pile of clothing waiting to be chucked into the laundry bin. My special place becomes my study space, my cram space, when my mother no longer allowed me outside to study. More often than not however, sleep drags me under before I could get a chance to fix the mess I had created in the process, and so I end up with crumpled half - finished homework. Apparently I am not a still sleeper. Sometimes, two out of the three pillows that I had with me when I went to sleep somehow end up in the floor. Sometimes, even my blanket joins them. I would wake up in the middle of the night just to retrieve my things, only to lose them again when morning comes.

I miss my special place. I left it, back in Davao. It really was the only place where I could connect with myself, and be honest with myself. Upon my arrival here in Metro Manila, and subsequently in the Ateneo Dormitories, I knew I had to find something similar to that special space. And so far, I haven't had any luck in finding any.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Rorrim fo Desire.

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It was dark. The only source of illumination came from a single window, where mooonbeams fall softly unto the stone floor below. Not enough light to see. Curiously enough, when I peered into the mirror, the image reflected upon it seemed to be emitting light. Not that it mattered, for what I saw in it was far more interesting.

Home was what I saw. Not just the house itself, not just the city from whence I came, but the people living in it. My family. There they were, front and center. Grinning madly at me. And carrying various dishes only my mother could have produced. My mouth begins to water. Madly. The reflection moves animatedly, but my ears could not hear their voices. It's a mirror, not a TV. I chided myself, and I settled against the stone pillar for support. My eyes begin to water. My family.. my family is waiting for me.

The background shimmers into the familiar academe of my high school. The mirror seemed wider to me, although I am sure it had not changed its width. I saw my old schoolmates, my friends, the people whom I owe some of the best and some of the most wonderful experiences in life in all those times I shared with them. To one side, I saw stacks of lab reports, quizzes, and research proposals grinning at me like old friends (grinning evilly, more like it). I couldn't help but remember all the effort I put into them, just to survive this dangerous race that was Pisay. Ah, how I miss those days!

But alas, time forbids our long awaited reunion. It flows in one direction, regrettably so. Saddened as I am, I know I must move on. No matter how much I will for time to be otherwise, the way I remembered home will always be a bit different from the way I had remember it. Nothing in this universe is constant. My desire will have to remain as it is: a desire.

I quietly left the presence of the Mirror of Erised.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Touch the color of...

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---->Kinawat gikan sa http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm
You are under considerable stress and you are almost about to 'blow your top' but you are fortunate enough to be able to exert control. Control is the name of the game and it is so good to realise that whatever the situation may be a this time - it will pass. You need to get away from everything for a while and if you do, you will find that, strangely enough, it will seem that most of your problems and situations will seem to wash away, just as the sea may wash away 'footprints' in the sand.

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.

You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realise these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

There is an inherent fear that you may be prevented from achieving the things you want. This activates your subconscious desire for peace of mind and mental security. It is increasingly obvious to you that the environment that you are in is not conducive to your well-being and so you are seeking fresh fields - somewhere free of conflict where you can RELAX and THINK.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Sunset.

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Sunsets are romantic. They are beautiful. Have you ever witnessed one? The instance in which day meets night, and the sky is a-flush with orange, indigo, violet, and finally inky black as the moon and stars rule and the sun no longer. In my experience, it is best to watch a sunset when one is by the beach, when ones view is largely unobstructed, and if it is, mountains and hills are the ones responsible, heightening ones experience as the radiant colors of a sunset take effect. One would gaze at the spectacle without end, holding his breath he witnesses its end. Beautiful. There is no other word that could describe the peace and tranquility one can get from merely watching a sunset.

A sunset... in Quezon City is the most depressing thing I have ever seen. However, it's beauty was not tainted in anyway; in fact, it was intensified - its orange was brighter, the rays of light, more distinct. It was as beautiful as any sunset. What makes it so depressing.. is the looming darkness. Buildings, not mountains obstructed the view. And one cannot see the ocean, that body of water whose salty spray brings calmness to ones spirit. Buildings, buildings all around! Their shadows are made even longer by the sunset, bring night even quicker to the denizens below. A feeling of insignificance, a feeling of utter separation from nature can be felt. What of it, you might ask. What of it, if what really matters is the sunset itself?

True, the sunset may have never changed, but its meaning; what it means to be, did.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

I steal surveys. OM NOM NOM

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Out of boredom, ninakaw ko ang survey na ninakaw ni Karla galing kay Kim na galing kay Janille.

o_O

1. Name someone who can always make you laugh?
- Bernaaah! I miss you. :'(

2. What were you doing at 10:00 this morning?
-netting. Attempting to study for math exam. Failing at it.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
-went shopping at Rustan's. Malapit na maubos ang shampoo ko eh. hehehe.

4. What did you do last night?
-watched 3 plays. OMG GAY.

5. What color is your hair brush?
-one's blue, the other's brown

6. Have you text voted for an American Idol?
-wouldn't even if i could. will rally on net though.

7. Hot tea or Iced tea?
iced tea. hot tea = ugh

8. What was the weather like today?
-mainit sa umaga, karon murag kaulanon

9. Where did your last hug take place?
-when my family left. damn. long time ago.

10. What are you excited for?
-COMPSAT GA!!

12. Closest thing to you that is green?
-t shirt ko rin!

14. Last person you spoke to?
Karina my roommate

15. Are you very random?
-oh yes so very much OMG naruto!

16. Do you want to get your hair cut?
-already did

17. Are you over the age of 25?
-thankfully no

18. Do you talk a lot?
-noon? oh yes.

19. Does your screen name have an x in it?
-yex

20. Do you know anyone named Stephanie?
-yup. blockmate

21. Do you make up your own words?
-ya mon

22. Are you ticklish?
-ya mon

23. Are your ears pierced?
-ya mon

24. Bar soap or body wash?
-bahr sop

25. Are you a jealous person?
-way more than you are.

26. What brand of shampoo do you use?
-h&s

27. Do you have curly hair?
-strit lng nman her ko

28. Where did you go today?
-school. rustans. BDO.

29. What 1 item do you always pick up at the grocery store?
-food.

30. What do you say a lot?
-gud, lagi, bitaw

31. Red or White Wine?
-red

33. What are you doing tonight?
-watch BLEACH

34. Who was your last missed call?
-mother goose

35. What should you be doing right now?
-sort my laundry.

36. Do you have a nickname?
-neonix

37. Are you a heavy sleeper?
-like oil!

38. What are you listening to?
-because of of you by Kelly Clarkson

39. Is there anyone you like right now?
-me

40. When was the last time you did the dishes?
-last night

41. Did you cry today?
nope, but i did so everyday last week

42. How big is your bed?
-singgol

43. Do you know someone with the same birthday as you?
-yup. neighbor.

44. How many pictures are hanging in the room you are in?
-in my corner = zero.

45. Does anyone like you?
-I like me

46. Do you collect anything?
-knowledge. char. nerd.

47. Last time you went on a date?
-never did.

48. What's written on your mouse pad?
-EPROSARTAN + HYDROCHLOROTHIAZIDE. O_O

49. Do you like coffee?
-nah

50. Do you know anyone in the military?
-anna? hahaha

51. Number of pillows you sleep with?
-3. wah ang isang pillow ko andun kay april!

52. Could you live without a computer?
-tried, but can't.

53. Favorite flavor of ice cream
-...strawberries and cream!



"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Challenge Essay: My Room

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My English teacher decided to give my class a headache (as if the 3 other papers we have to pass weren't bad enough), and ordered/requested/asked us to write another essay. Here are the rules:

• "My Room" essay must talk about -duh- your room.
• 100-150 words
• maximum of 10 words per sentence
• each form of (to be) verb can only be used twice, max.
• each channel of perception (sight, hearing, etc.) can only be used twice
• no adverbs allowed

Having done so, I tried to do this monstrous undertaking.

I can only hope I brought the piece justice.

My Room

Warm light floods the room. I see blue walls set against a white ceiling. I’m sitting on a chair that is flat and angular. The book in my hands reeks of new paper. I clutch my pen firmly; plastic tube digging into skin. The fan’s whirr distracts me from writing. I slouch as I write. A cold breeze slips in from the windows. The curtains flap aside to make way. Dust bunnies begin to migrate across the floor in droves. My eyelids begin to droop. I slip into bed and my back meets the firm mattress. I rest my head against soft pillows. The whirr becomes soothing instead. I close my eyes, and drift into sleep.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX