2k8. howwasit?

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WARNING: Some details may be inaccurate. Blame my failing memory. XD Blame all the geek stuff which demanded much of my memory capacity. AND MY PROCESSING POWER. Feel free to correct this account as much as you would like.
It was, by far, a most interesting year.

It was the year when I experienced the most change.

I remember January being a cram month... Sci-tech fair, anyone? Bastos un.. I still hate research from the very bottom of my heart. XD Still, when I picked up my research paper last night (YES, TEAM DICTATORSHIP I STILL HAVE IT) I couldn't help but feel that all our effort had not gone to waste... It was, (and allow me to say this) a well made paper. The fact that it took us quite a considerable amount of time, money and effort just to produce the paper still amazes me.

And YES, bitter pa rin ako sa grade. Nnngggghhhh.

It was also on the 5th of this month when I received some news that would change my life forever. o_O

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February! Uhm... Prom month, yes? Actually, the horror fun started late January. Mambomambo to the beat. Good times. Mejo nakakapanic ung paggawa ng sayaw but it's okay. GO AYA!! :D I still love our music. Who has a copy? Pahingi naman....

Prom night! I look.. well. YEAH. I regret not having taken enough pictures. UI WAYNE SAYAW TAYO ULIT. :D KEEEENT! TANGO. I WANT. :3 Fun un. Super.

//Yes. I LOVE dancing. PALAG??!?

February also signaled the beginning of the woes the Singapore Scholarship exam was sure to bring.

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The actual exam was in March, and so we started cramming in March. LOL. Geekmode sa library. Grabe un, ha. I was in the company of some of the greatest geniuses in campus. ^:)^ ALL HAIL. I WAS HONORED TO BE IN YOUR PRESENCE.

March also meant CLEARANCE SIGNING, which subsequently meant DEADLINES, which also meant HELLWEEK. Yahoo.

We had our ritrit. We graduated. We're OUTTA HERE!

ooorrr NOT. We CAT officers had to finish the mural painting restoration(which was hidden from view, btw) as part of the community our batch was supposed to do. O_O We thought of it as our first reunion (uhm WHAT.) since we had already (officially) graduated. Lolz. It wasn't a complete waste, however, as we played Paintball after (OI CHARDI LARO ULIT TAYO! :D) and on another painting day, Anna and I got introduced to DotA.

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April-May. The summer was spent either a) packing b) panicking. Moving to Manila isn't something that should be taken lightly. THE CRAP. It would be my first time to (consciously) go to Manila, and that trip would be a MOVE-IN, not a VACATION!!

It merited some time to panic, and panic I did, these two months of summer. I was, after all, about to embark on this great adventure!

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THE MONTH OF EPIC FAILURES. June.
I managed to.. uh.. 'lose' my laptop, USB, toothpaste, toothbrush, cellphone, ID, money (although not at the same time, good heavens!) during this month, all in different ways. O_O It caused me a great deal of stress, that's for sure.

Top that with the challenge of having to adjust to the dorm... the acads... and.. well, dealing with homesickness...

Rough month. At least the worst was over. XD

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Things started to smooth about a bit by the time July came~

May routine na ako sa morning... daan muna sa room ni Kaye, tapos kina Weanne, tapos i-page ko sina Joth and Leland.. LOL.

English-Lit-Fil papers were piling up, and that kept me busy for some time. I started to get into the rhythm of studying..

August and September passed by with me hardly noticing~

StarCraft and O2Jam kept me occupied after all. I learned the basics of strategy from the masters during these months. ^__^ Special thanks to the residents of Cervini313! :D

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And October! Birth month wahey! Sembreak wahey! Lingaw2x diri sa Dabaw... We visited Pisay and saw the changes... We went to GenSan for kalag2x...

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OH. AND ENCHANTED KINGDOM.

The best adventure yet!

Ayoko nang mag Space Shuttle.... URK... nahihilo ako just thinking about it..

But that was fun. Oh so very. 

Tapos nag UP AME kami right after... ^__^

And.. well.. classes started... EN12 is death... Same with Ma20.2... Lit14 is fun and relaxing... 

But Ballroom.. Ballroom is LOVE.

Of course, my feet would get mutilated in the process, but whatever! It's fun anyway! :D

Month ender: Stef's Birthday! The best! (thanks ulit kay Kim and Kenken and Cheche for lending me their stuffs...)

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And here we are. December.

Syempre, ito ung month na tinatambak ang projects and stuff...

But parties! And gifts!

And halata naman yata from my most recent blog entries kung gaano kagulo ung world at that moment in time.

((...abuse of TagLish. whoops.))

In a few hours, 2008 would end, and 2009 would begin.

What adventures await me? Hahaha. Excited na ako!

Uunahan ko na kayo~ Happy New Year Everyone!!

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,

There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Hell week.

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Only now did I know its true definition.

I'm tired. I'm sick. I'm sick and tired of having to put up with this stress. There's so much to do. There's so only much to worry about. And my goodness, why did they all pile up in ONE WEEK??

It's the Christmas season. The time for giving and sharing and being all happy and stuff. Apparently its definition has expanded to include: SHOPPING and PARTYING. It's also the last school week of the year. That means papers, papers, long tests, quizzes, projects... the list goes on. Christmas also means cold weather. I've been enjoying the brisk breezes these past few days, but now that they've given me a doozy of a fever I'm not so sure.

Christmas also means family time - which is another cause for my constant worry.

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know if I should mope around - there are parties to be had, gifts to be exchanged, etc. I can't exactly be hyper either - problems.. are pressing down all around me. Maybe I can't just do anything PERIOD, since all this stress has pinned me down.

I've been called manhid before (not surprisingly, since I rarely do show extreme emotion), and I now I just don't know if I should be upset or relieved now that I know I'm not. I got mad. I got frustrated. I've spilt tears this week already, on more than one occasion, under the influence of all this stress. These tears came out on their own, despite my best efforts to hold them back. I feel so.. helpless. Weak.

It's Christmas, damnit. I should be happy. And I am. It's just that I'm sad at the same time too. And since that's just not physically possible, my body declared an emergency shutdown.

My goodness. I'm whining. Ugh.

I find it very ironic that I blogged about how happy and content I was 2 blog posts ago. So much for that.

It's been a hell of a week, in more ways than you might imagine.


-nEOnIX

Wishlist.

Due to rather popular dorm demand. Not.

EDIT: the heck. it's public. lol.

No mugs, photo frames, candles, or the like. Please naman. What am I going to do with those things?? XD

Keep in mind that my favorite color is orange and I love the moon. (read: orange moon shaped things. o_O LOL. Basta un.) Sa anime naman... I love Naruto, Bleach and One Piece.

On to the actual wishlist! AND/OR yang lahat ha... depende lang sa budget.

• SILVER jewelry (earrings/necklace/pendant/bracelet). No stud earrings pl0z. :D Pwedeng fake. Basta cute. Basta hindi amoy kalawang. (Of course, may usapan tayo sa price.. remember that. :D )
• a BOOK. Sana sci-fi. Please lang, no Star Wars, and kung may Star Trek man, ung set sa Next Generation. Uhm. If at all possible, sana recent ung book. Mga 2000ish. Time travel/ time paradox = WIN. Wala akong reklamo sa Romance or sa Fantasy. Oki? Oki! (Books I've read: HP series, LOTR series, Dan Brown: Angels and Demons, Da Vinci Code, Deception Point. I already have a copy of the Twilight series.)
• MANGA. Preferably a oneshot, since serialized stuff is hard to keep track of.
• NINJA MERCHANDISE. //uhm. yes. pwede rin ung ibang anime. (see above). Pwedeng cosplay stuff. lol. Wag lang DVD, wala akong player eh. :D
• a HAT. a cute one. ^__^ ung pwedeng masuot kasi wala lang.
• GIRLY STUFF. Like. Skirt. Dress. Haha. Not recommended, but what the heck.
  
• forgiveness. Demanding ako eh. Hehehehe. peace~!
• whatever. Pwedeng wala dito ung ibibigay mo sa akin. No probs. Basta... dapat from the HEART. :D Sana naman magagamit ko ung thing. ^__^ Wearable items... mga ganun.
• LOVE. we all need it. -ttebayo!

have fun sa shopping! Nakabili na ako. Hindi ko ata nasunod ang wishlist. oops.
good luck girls!

:)

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I am happy.

Now that the balance of the world has been restored, I can enjoy life freely once again.

However, I know that this precarious equilibrium will someday be disturbed, and thus chaos will reign once more.

But not now.

I am content.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Something's missing.

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I'm having too much fun with college life. >_> OH HELP THE ACADS. I've neglected my blogging na. OHNOES.

I went digging in my drafts folder, and I found this. It was about two stanzas long, and nowhere near finished. LOLZ. I decided to fill in the blanks nalang, para naman may ma publish ako.

YAY FOR SABAWNESS. :D

'What is love?', I have asked, on so many a time,
Whenever I sat down and I wrote in rhyme,
For love is a favorite topic of all
Especially to those, to love, they did fall.

I do not know love, and yet I still write,
Even though I know naught of this troublesome plight-
-if a plight indeed is what you call that state,
of being utterly unable to hate.

//THIS IS A JOOOOOOOOOOKE
Love is deaf. Love is blind. And then another cheesy line. I especially remember one about gum- Love is makapilit, makabuang.
//THIS IS A JOOOOOOOOOOKE

Love- True Love- is it as they say?
As I see it in movies or is there simply no way?
Will those perfect stories only exist in a book?
Can you really fall in love with just one look?

And heartbreak! Is it the end of the line?
To have your loved one leave you for indefinite time?
Is it serious? Is it nothing? Or is it what I dread?
That is - one would spill drops of bright red?

We do not live forever - this much I do know.
Happy endings...... just how is this so?
Happily ever after, the fairy tales proclaim,
How can there be a lie that's simply this lame?

Too many ideas - too much to swallow
I guess I'll never be able to follow.
..I suppose I will just have to sit and wait;
For that one arrow to seal my fate.


-nEOnIX

Poor feets. :(

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Yes. Feets. That is a deliberate typo inserted to celebrate the discovery of typos created by whiteboard markers.

ANYWAYS.

As some of you know (and if you don't, you'll find out anyway), I got Ballroom Dancing for my PE. That's all well and good, since I enjoy dancing (of course, that doesn't mean I'm any good at it) and since PE grades aren't counted in QPI computation, but really, THESE SHOES ARE A PAIN.

A PAIN IN THE POCKET, AND A PAIN TO MY FEETs.

On the bright side, these shoes are really really pretty to look at. :D

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Second Sem na!

Ang haba ng lunch break ko.. Hahaha. Just the thing for slow eaters like me.

And lookit that, earliest class ko is at 8:30am! :D A definite step up from last sem's schedule. At least this time I can sleep MOAR. :)

Masama nga lang dahil pinagtabi ang FIL-ENG-LIT. INSTANT DEATH. I only hope na hindi ako makakatulog sa LIT because of that...

This would be my first time to run from classroom-to-classroom. Wish me luck!

Goodbye Davao na.. :(

Cooking Mama...

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Or cooking WITH mama...

Is NOTHING like the real thing. o_O

Some of you might wonder what it is that I've been up to these past few days... (others wouldn't wonder at all). It's been a week and a half since I've gotten home and I have... done quite a bit, I suppose. I've been playing StarCraft at a pace [Commander] Drox would've been proud of.. I have finished the Chronicles of Narnia (all SEVEN books - YAY!) Nikki oh-so-kindly lent to me. I visited my HS (see previous blog entry). I still have my Samurai X series to watch (lol tagal na un), the CW10 readings (thanks Ella!) to.. er... READ, and Naruto and Bleach anime to catch up on.

I did accomplish something... amazing last week. I BAKED (with Ate Rica's help - YAY)! Nyahaha. A lot of physical effort is needed - pushing a stylus around a DS screen is NOTHING compared to the actual stuff that you have to do while baking!

MISSION: Bake Chocolate Pixies

Pop these in the oven for 15 minutes...

Yeah.. those look about right... :D

MMMMMM!!

Yay cookies! OM NOM NOM!

Note: At the time of this writing, only 5 cookies are left in the cookie jar tupperware. O_O

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Arrheneo survey

//First off, many thanks to wayne for teh wonderful survey. :D

1. What's your ID number?

- 084082

2. Passed or wait-listed?
- Passed! nyahaha

3. How did you know about the ACET results?
- somebody (I think it was Anna) was ranting (via YM) that the results were out. My parents, in turn, woke ME up.

4. Was Ateneo your first choice?
- I let the exams choose for me.

5. Do you know what your ACET score is?
- Nope... is that even possible?

6. What course was your first choice?
- Physics with Applied Computer Systems [eek nerd.]

7. Second choice?
- Chemistry with Applied Computer Systems [eek. nerdx2]

8. Anong course mo ngayon? 
- Computer Science. Far out, much? :))

9. Did you have any plans of shifting?
- None as of the moment.

10. Chinito/chinita ka ba?
- Eek no.

11. Taga-Ateneo High?
- PISAY HIGH! (redundant crap!)

12. Did you have fun in your OrSem?
-  Oh yes. Naligaw pa nga ako eh.

13. Saang gate ka pumasok nung first day?
- Dorm ako galing. :D

14. Are you staying/did you stay in a dorm?
- Eliazo Residence Hall!

15. Ever had an F in your grade report?
- noop.

16. How about an A?
- YES!

17. Highest grade?
- A eh. (Many thanks to Maam Sy and Sir Oca and Doc V! :D)

18. Lowest grade?
- B (OMG AMAZING TALAGA TOH)

19. Worst experience in ADMU?
- More like experienceS. I lost a ton of stuff. That is all.

20. Do you always attend class?
- I cut  PE class. ONCE. ONCE lng!

21. What are/were your orgs?
- CompSat and Toujin and Arsa.

22. How many units have/did you pass/ed?
- All the required units! :D

23. Nangangarap/nangarap ka bang mag-laude?
- Libre lang mangarap. :)

24. When will/did you graduate?
- 2012. Hopefully. Sana. 

25. Fave subject/s?
- CS21A (Doc Vergara) - why? Because it's FUN!

- Lit 13 (Mr. Oscar Campomanes) - his storytelling skills are great

- EN11 (Mr. Miguel Escaño) - gives us these out-of-class activities. :D  Fun, but exhausting.

26. Worst subject/s?
- FIL 11 - bisaya ko!

- MA18 - math is math, i guess.

27. Fave landmark sa ADMU?
- Gesu!

28. Fave kainan?
- Gonzaga Cafe, methinks.

29. How do/did you get to school?
- Walk/run/fly.

30. Are/were you always at the lib?
- uh.. nope. Just 4 or 5 times for the sem, i think.

31. Ever gone to the infirmary when you were sick?
- Nope, just to visit someone who was.

32 May balak kang mag-MS, PhD?
- No plans as of yet.

33 Have you ever watched a graduation ceremony?
- Sa Pisay? Yes. Sa ADMU? No. 

34 Do you know the "Song for Mary" by heart?
- Nope. Give me 3 or so years.

35 Memorize mo ba ang Fabilioh?
- Maybe?

36 ...ang Halikinu?
- ...maybe?

37 ...ang Blue Eagle Spelling?
-.........maybe? Nakikisabay lng ako. lolz.

38 Are you part of Team Ateneo?
- Nope.

39 Ever had a perfect score in an exam?
- Yes.:) CS! wooo

40Ano ang ayaw mo sa Hell Week?
- Hell month, more like. Uhm. Lack of sleep?

41 Dito ka ba natuto uminom ng beer?
- I don't drink BEER.

42 What do you like about our school?
- Well. The location, for one.

43. QPI?
- 3.58333somethingish. I think.

A first GREAT adventure

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//ANNA! PICTURES!

Isang week na ako dito sa Davao since the beginning of sembreak, and yet it was only today na nag laag ( 'gala' to you tagalog peeps :D ) ako. And what better place to visit here in Davao than my high school?

Philippine Science High School - Southern Mindanao Campus

Beginnings of plans were well underway even before semestral break started. I-we heard rumors that we were to attend/lead/omgwtfbbq the Flag Ceremony on the 20th. As you may (or may not know) Flag Ceremonies in Pisay are INSANELY early (7:00am sharp) solemn events complete with an IceBreaker, Bible Reading, Prayer, National Anthem, Panatang Makabayan, Panunumpa ng Lingkod Bayan, Pisay Hymn, Attendance Checking, Gulay of the Week, (and the occasional announcement of Contest Winnings our most brilliant (aswang) students have garnered plus a 10-15 minute segment in which our Directress yawyaw's (dada's) about school and life and sometimes a combination of both.

The original idea was that we show up @ 7:00am, on the dot, just in time to watch the morning's proceedings. Anna and Tara had a few ideas of their own (and naturally I got dragged into it) - we were to show up in a college shirt, paired with the Pisay skirt. Bakit? Kasi. Wala lng. Tripping. Social suicide, what have you.

Needless to say, we were late (who on earth gets up early enough to get to school @ 7:00am anyway?) - we arrived just as the assembly ended and the students were going back to their classrooms. It did not, however, stop us from barging in into the academe, and earning thunderous laughs from the teachers and our batchmates who managed to spot us (OMG PISAY SKIRT) and we immediately formed a little circle and swapped stories (right in front of the Registrar's Office). Our get-up earned us several stares (O_O) and more and more laughs as more and more people noticed us. We had to revert to normal clothing, (except Anna, who was wearing short shorts) before we started touring the campus since it was so damn hot and the stares were getting kinda old. :))

Nad door-to-door kami, pausing only when we knew the teacher, and we answered their questions about college and stuff. (Pinapasok pa kami sa Calcium, sa Kamia at sa Diamond! Hahaha) There were several uncomfortable special mentions when it came to the "Saan kayo nag college? " question (UPD kaming lahat... except si Yoni... where on earth did the ADMU people go? T_T) but it was all in good fun and we enjoyed ourselves.

Something worth seeing in Pisay - the gym. Rather, the GYM. There were rooms built where the badminton courts were - rooms which were actually drafting rooms, dance rooms, etc. Due to the low ceilings, and twisty tunnel-like corridors, they bore a strong resemblance to dungeons of the days long past. (side comment: dyan napupunta ang mga na-IR [Incident Report] )

Not only that, ung CR, pang mall na ang dating, may showers na, there were bleachers EVERYWHERE (side comment: Anong point sa paglagay ng napakaraming bleachers kung hindi natin mapupuno?), and there were locker rooms, and HUGE dressing rooms backstage. Hardwood na rin ang Basketball court. Oh diba, chui???

While all this development was going on, however, the students have taken to murdering the grass (not like it's a bad thing, mind you, it's just that mahigpit na ipinagbabawal ang pag-apak sa damo sa panahon namin -_-) in the ABD (Area Between Dorms) and the Quad(-rangle).

Something NOT worth seeing in Pisay - our batch Legacy. Our Low-cost, Lovely, Legacy. Rated L for Legacy! (Grabe na gyud ang dili maka-gets. :D )

We went to SM for lunch (YES we stayed in Pisay the whole morning); we ate at Shakey's, specifically. We also found... quite a lot of people there! Haha. (Grabe ang payat ni John S!!) Regrettably, we had to leave for Boyztrek to meet up with Chardi (and perhaps Jan) and so we (Anna, Ella, Juneh and I) bid the others a most tearful goodbye.

The original plan was to head off to People's Park right after, but the rain spoiled our chances of going. (Taligsik/Ambon in Manila usually hailed the arrival of a STORM - we simply forgot that taligsik/ambon in Davao meant... just that, or worst case scenario, mere RAINFALL later in the evening.) Add that to the fact that the guys were nowhere to be found for the first 30minutes of our arrival. :D We opted to hang out in NCCC instead, and there we played Naruto (oh how I missed that) for an hour, before we went our separate ways.

Banga lng gihapon ko sa Naruto. LOL. But who carez. :D

It was a very nostalgic trip. I am so glad I went. SUPER sulit talaga, since I got to see a whole damn lot of people. :D

So guys... when's our next great adventure?!

The following statement is a FACT.
"Hindi nagpapalibak ang Pisay People."
Pisay has special powers. Beware.

-nEOnIX

October 15

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...never a dull moment.

Thank youthank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you

Listed in //PILIT// na chronological order.

Mom, Dad, Jana-chan, Farrah, Julienne, Linus, Mithi, Arie, Abby, Juneh, Wayne, Josh, Rina, Kent, Ella, Kye, D!!, Kim C, Verge, Ahmed, Gerdo, Nikki, Hazel H, Merrie, Anna, Tara, Cinds, Heidi, Gabby, Jotham, Tita Girl, Maam Sarah, Kat&Kar, Kim&Kei, Mariel, Nikki A., Kaye, Leland...Aya and PisayFC... and others. :D

..pastilan, feel ko may nakalimutan ako. XD

Just 5 minutes to go before the day officially starts and my cellphone starts singing. Croak croak it goes, and a steady stream of messages floods my phone, all wishing me a happy birthday.

As soon as I got back from mass, I opened my Yahoo messenger, and lo and behold there were greetings there as well!

Likewise, my guestbook in Multiply was visited by many well wishers.

Bonus points to those who gave me a call on this special day!

Grabe talaga, thanks guys. :D Your greetings were more precious to me than any material gifts anybody could give me. It reminded me that yes - it IS a special day and yes - people remembered. Those few words brought a smile to my lips and lighted that spark in my eyes.

Which is all well and good, considering that I spent the day cooking and baking. :D I totally missed this while I was in the dorm!

Weeee. Oh happy happy day!

Advanced Happy birthday to Kim&Kei! And Kent! KEEEENTOIII! :D

oh noooooes I'm old na. :))

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

The return of one Yoni.

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I'm back!

Back from the realm of silence, of nothingness, of dead internet connections.

Yahoo! Google!

I'm too braindead to whip up anything creative, and so I shall merely narrate the most recent happenings in my kinabuhi:

Finals Week

One of the craziest, yet funnest weeks of my life. My finals were on October 8 and 9, and so I had 4 days to procrastinate study. And so I did.. er... study. It never changed the fact that I PANICKED (ohsoverymuch) during those 4 finals of death and doom. It didn't change the fact that I crammed my final paper for En11 (on a side note, I got a 90 for that paper. :D).

After finals, but still Finals Week

Paaartaaaay!!

Well, not really. But I played more than a FEW games of Starcraft, discovered O2 JAM, went malling... that is, Eastwood City and Megamall.... and I stuffed myself silly with food from Shakeys and Pizza Hut.

Then the packing... OH the packing brings swift death to those who try and attempt it with nary a weapon to fight off the first signs of fatigue. 

Davao! Davao! Davao! 

Oh dormmates, blockmates, schoolmates and friends from up North (since Davao is in the South), I WILL MISS YOU ALL. See you all next month~!

I'm a bit bored here, but nothing beats the familiarity and the comfort that comes with being at home.

Home is where it's at!

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

CS-related pick up lines

//tabangi. XD Si EJ talaga, ang galing maghanap.
//o eto na, CS people! I-apply niyo ang CS21a learnings niyo para maintindhihan. :)

*---*---*

"You are a field in my class. You will always be protected."

"Are you an exception? Let me catch you."

"You are my increment operator. You make my value increase."

"I think you're my compiler. My life wouldn't start without you."

"You are my initializer: without you, my life would point to nothing (null)."

"I am a BufferedReader. You input meaning into my life."

"You are my semicolon; always present in everything I do."

"You are the JDK (Java Development Kit) in my life. I won't compile without you."

"If I were a method, you must be my parameter, because I will always need you."

"Can you be my private variable? I want to be the only one with access to you."

"We are an aggregation of classes: one cannot exist without the other."

"public class YourWorld extends MyWorld"

"My love is a for loop without the increment operator-- infinitive, non-terminating, and dificult to stop once it starts running."

"Let me be the 'throws Exception' to your 'public static void main (String[] args)'. I will accept whatever you give me."

"[me != me]. [me += you]."

"You are my superclass: you define what I can do."

"You are the IDE of my life: I find it easier because of you."

"My main method is 'public love iLoveYou().' "

"I am the field attribute in your class: I can't exist unless you do."

"My love for you is a constant variable: unupdatable and unchangeable."

"Are you an applet? You make me feel all GUI (gooey) inside."

"You are my loop condition. I keep coming back to you."

"You are my methods. I am nothing without you."

"Are you my driver? Because you make my life worthwhile."

"You are my API. I want to know everything about you."

"Can you be my ActionListener? That way you notice everything that I do."

"I am a boolean method whose love will always return true."

"Buti pa ang Strings, nag-mamatch."

"Buti pa ang data type, may value."

"Buti pa ang Swing components, may Listeners."

"String myHeart = "I Love You";

String[] herWords = myHeart.split(" ");

return null;"

"My love for you comes with no strings attached."

"Are you a double? The thought of you always floats inside my head."

"My love for you cannot be measured with an int, not with a long, and not even with an array. It is out of bounds and infinite.... "

"Di na tayo kailangang i-cast pa; magkatype na tayo, e..."

Hahahahahahaha!!

1010 Reasons Why It's Great to be a CS Major!

//1010 base 2.
//bigay ni EJ sa akin. SABAWNESS ahead.

10. It's totally appropriate to carry any number of electronic, battery-operated gadgets in leather cases on your belt.

9. You know the difference between a hacker and a cracker. That's a great tidbit for a cocktail party conversation.

8. You get to run the LAN party.

7. In dating, getting a "no" from a potential date is not necessarily the end, due to conditional statements several elseifs may follow.

6. You get to go to parties with other geeks with free food and soda. Okay, they're called programming contests, but that still counts, right?

5. Free as in beer. Free as in beer.

4. If you're a female in a Comp Sci class, you have a statistically significant possibility of finding one of your classmates attractive, considering almost all the rest are male.

3. In the situation above, your chance of that particular guy liking you back is very high, because you may be the only female.

2. People think Computer Science majors are really smart, can solve problems, and like caffeine. At least one is correct for any given student.

1. After forking, you can freely kill your child (processes) at will.

Soup. Sabaw. Soupsoupsabawsabaw.

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Come with me, said Slumber. Come with me, dear child, to the land of dreams
A land where anything is possible
Where the most peculiar things happen
Where you will find things unheard of in your realm.

Sleep is a void. It is an escape.
An escape from the bindings and chains of time.
I merely close my eyes and rest my head
I empty my thoughts
I surrender my body to conform with the shape of the bed
And the portal to dreamland appears before me
I find myself unable to move
Trapped
Confined
Cold
Lost
I try open my eyes and I find out that I could
Everything seemed
Clearer
Brighter
And time has passed me by
I have leaped hours into the future
My mind is still in the past
Or still in my dreams
Did I really wake up?
Am I seeing what's real?
It's still surreal, for everything is still
Clearer
Brighter
I clench my fist
I want to feel my fingernails digging into my skin
Pain. I feel none of it.
I wonder if Slumber has indeed left my side.

I finally wake up.
I blink the last of Sleep away from my eyes.
My head still hurts.
My thoughts still speak of my adventures in dreamland
My body reminds me of reality.
I had jumped through multiple dimensions,
I realize that now.

There's no real escape
I know that now
And yet I still sleep
I still escape to the land of dreams.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Writer's block

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I only realize now just how much my writing has deteriorated (I mean look at this sentence - it sucks!). I am no longer capable of spitting out English with perfect grammar and diction (or at least something close to it), and thusly, it has affected my manner of writing as well. My most recent blog posts are never without a tagalog, bisaya or conyo word inserted somewhere. My sentences... are so kalat (SEE?!?) and sometimes my ideas simply do not connect

I'm struggling to write in English! (the world's going to end now) I sincerely hope that this is just a phase, and that I would quickly recover. I have yet to write a final evaluation paper (for English) and I have my Lit finals to prepare for. Seeing as it is an open-everything exam, I predict that we would be writing a really really long winded discussion about why so-and-so did this-or-that or perhaps an explanation of certain references and allusions the story presents (the novel is heavily based on history). I believe that I would have to prepare a LOT of notes should I want to do well on my finals.

I suppose my dream - which is to have SOMETHING published on any school publication - is getting harder to reach. I know I should be writing... I know I should be blogging, but I guess my creative juices aren't flowing as much as they should be. (That, and my apparent lack of inspiration).

Practice, practice, practice. If there's anything I learned at all about writing, it's those three words. I know that if I would write often enough (and in straight English, hopefully), the quality of my compositions would improve. Sadly, I find it difficult to write about stuff (Is there anything worth writing about?). Either that, or my ideas simply do not last long enough before I could transfer them to the computer (read: short term memory loss).

I just wish that something -anything- would jolt me back to writing.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Adventure nasad!

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I had another round of 'firsts' yesterday - first time to ride the trains w/o my relatives around, first time to watch a movie (here in Manila) w/o Pisay people, and my first time to watch a HORROR movie. (whaaaaaaat???)

My English professor had deemed it imperative that we watch the movie 'Stepbrothers', in preparation for the Evaluation Paper writing module (or something like that). Unfortunately, the movie was 1) only showing in Glorietta and Greenbelt (both are in Makati, WTH) and 2) R-18.

A good number of my English classmates have already watched the movie (whether they sneaked in, or if they brought someone who REALLY was 18, I don't know.) and so we didn't give the age problem much thought. We had to address the first problem -- that being, how exactly do we get there?

We (Irwin, Weanne, Joyce and I) agreed to watch the movie after lunch yesterday. However, due to... rather unfortunate circumstances, Irwin was the only one who was able to accompany me. Of course, it just so happened that Irwin invited Leland to come along, and so it was just the three of us.

Leland was already at the rendezvous point - that left Irwin and I to brave the rigors of having to travel by LRT-MRT (i got train-sick. whaaaaat?). Sardinas ang daigdig, ang tula. I know, I've been through worse (MRT rush hour, anyone?) pero still, noh. Naligaw pa kami sa SM (our destination was Glorietta, mind you). It was tiring, but fun.

We hit a minor problem pagdating namin doon. Na low-bat si Leland. LOL. We ended up having to watch the 6pm showing (despite the fact that we arrived 10 minutes before 4pm) and so we had 2 hours to... well, rot. :) The three of us settled for DQ and we drank our shakes in the food court. We even ran into Gab. o_O

Grabe, kinabahan kami when we tried (and failed) to enter the cinema. LOL. CRAP. Nakakahiya. Oh well. Good thing we were allowed a refund. Sir Miggy was kind enough to let us watch another movie. ^__^

...and what do you know, the guys picked 100 feet. And I just had to go with them. There's no helping it, I guess. (Leland was holding the tickets, Irwin had secured permission from Sir Miggy). WAH. Of course, ako ang nasa gitna, in the attempt to ease my nerves. "It's okay to scream," says Leland. He'll scream rin naman eh, and if I don't scream, baka magkakaheart attack ako. o_O He has a point, but I have another defense mechanism. I attempt to rationalize what's going on in the ghost's head (however, since there's no telling what a supernatural entity would do, there really is no point. This is why I prefer sci-fi movies to horror flicks.).

We found seats just three rows away from the front. The screen filled my view. AS IN. ANG LAPIT. CRAP! We managed to predict when exactly the ghost would appear (hint: MUSIC). Irwin would partially cover his eyes, I would pull down my hood, and Leland would prevent me from doing so- BOOM! "AAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!" (What do you know, Leland screams like a guy. :) ) I would say, "ah, this guy's gonna die", Irwin would agree and it would come true. (the way the murder was executed was beyond my imagination, however, and so we sat there, wide-eyed with terror and shock.

The weird thing was.. after shrieking my lungs out, I would laugh. Gigglesnort. I am not normal, I know. I guess I was laughing at the fact that my heart jumped at those opportune moments, and that I managed to scare myself silly. O_O

At the story's climax, we were startled so badly that one of my [spectacles'] lens popped. o.o Whaaat. I had to watch the ending with one good eye. Sayang.

Leland managed to fix my glasses in the food court after the movie (which meant I had to walk around half-blind for a while) so ayos lng. (Otherwise I would have to ride the trains half-blind.... whaaa)

We got back @ around... 10pm? :D

That was fun. That was really really fun. BUT! No moar horror movies PLZ.


-sigh- back to Critical Paper Writing...

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

LOL.

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Do NOT take this post seriously.

$h!t happens, i know. What I didn't know was that $h!t occurs quite often.

I WAS VERY HAPPY na walang stupid na nangyari for the month of August. :) By that, I meant that I didn't lose anything, I did all of my homework, and I was able to sleep sufficiently.

Tapos just recently..

• nagiging stupid/sabaw ako. I stopped being coherent. o_O I can't speak a sentence of pure tagalog without messing up. The word 'like' is now my new friend. (read: CONYO)
  
• (last week of August) DRAMA sa block.
  
• slept @ 2:30am on a SCHOOL NIGHT (OH NOES)
  
• I LOST/misplaced/dropped MY PRECAL BOOK.
• I FAILED to acquire a non-scientific calculator for Math LT

$h!t for the future:

• $h!t filipino reporting sa Monday. Wah. Bulol ako. EPIC FAIL.
• critical paper for English
• OMG NOVEL SA LIT FINALS HINDI KO PA NABABASA
• I need to find PRECAL Book
• other $h!t.

aww... $h!t. Pero "have fun with life :D" sabi ni Jotham, and so I will. Hindi nga lng talaga maiiwasan na may $h!t na nangyayari.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

hala ui..

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WARNING: THIS IS A BISAYA-ENGLISH-TAGALOG POST.

hala ui... nalingaw na gyud ko kaayo diri sa ADMU. The people here are infinitely interesting! Haha. Although dili na ko ga - sige ug uban sa block (kadalasan diri ra ko sa dorm), lingaw ra gihapon ko sa akong mga kauban.

Maayo pud, kay dali ra ko ma-bore kung routine kaayo ang LIFE. Actually, routine na diay siya. On MondaysWednesdaysAndFridays, mata ko ug sayo, pukawon nako tanan akong blockmates (go to Kaye's room... Page Leland and Jotham..) dayon breakfast, unya Fil11, unya balik sa dorm/CTC to kill time before my next class. EN11 - LIT13 = Magtanga! :D Pag lunch, sabay dayon mi ni Irwin (usahay tua si Patricia[English blockmate], si Joyce, si Rap ug si Erwin [last 2 are Irwin's blockmates]). Didto mi sa Cervini cafe gakaon, kay layo na ang LST ug kanunay naga ulan. :D After lunch, usahay musaka ko to the dorm room to lessen my load, unya dagan dayon ko to my Math class (I'm nearly always late lol!). After math, I leave to do my service hours( although 1 hour nlng akong kulang karon.. yay!!). Kung Friday, after my usual 1 hour break (spent in the dorm, no less) adtu na dayon mi for INTACT. Kauban nako si Jotham and Leland mga inana na time. :)

Mas lingaw kung TTH. Wushu sa buntag (halos dili na ko mkamata.. lolz) at 8am (usahay. Maligo ko dayon balik sa dorm - and off I go to Math class. Hala, magpakababoy na sad ko (I eat in class, kanina ko lng nalaman na BAWAL. Lol. I was hungry!) while listening to the lesson. Lunch is usually spent with the block (Gonzaga Cafe) or with Leland (Cervini Cafe). Dagan napud to CS21A class (kanunay mi late, kay dugayan si Jotham!! <_<>"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Tapos na ang friday...

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and -0.5 na sa mga sagabal sa buhay. Whew. Grabe, stressful pala ung filipino (crapxit) thing... nakakapagod ang preparations pero mas taxing ung aftermath. T_T Pero enjoy na enjoy naman ako sa presentations ng both groups (sayang Team Parisukat - we should've practiced MOAR!!

Pero lingaw (fun) baya ang presentations.. Hahaha... Team Ilocula... I didn't get the whole point really, (I'll have to read your notes pah though... XD) Pero... wala lng. The fact that you guys suddenly break into song and verse just makes me want to ROTLMAO! Go Rina! Ang galing mo mag narrate (mag invoke ng feelings ng audience.... lol...)

As for my Team, Team Parisukat, nag specialize kami sa cross-dressing. LOL. Wahahaha. Poor Joyce, being the only girl MAN onstage. :) (ang ganda pa ng boses niya :) ) Go Gelo! Your Isya is just ADORABLE! (high pitched ang boses, grabe) XD Sumayaw pa si Erwin ng 'boy' dance... ehh Ate Pastora ang role niya! Wahahaha... can't stop laughing.. ANG GALING TALAGA NI LELAND. (no further explanation needed) Si Carlo nman (although di ko gets kung bakit hindi siya nka girl clothes XD) is the... uh... counterbalance sa lahat ng insanity na nangyayari. LOL.

Nag interlude pa kami ng Pambansang Awit. :D Oh dibah???

Unya, gipatawag mi sa teacher paghuman sa among presentation. Ambi nako naunsa na, diay tu, nagreklamo ra diay akong groupmate kay ngano daw wa siya gi ingnan na gibalhin iyang role - siya man gud unta mag voice-act, pero gibalhin namo siya sa handout ug sa reporting kay wa man gud siya kadtong nag (impromptu, I admit) recording session mi. Pero still noh, ngano gi-ingnaan man dayon niya ang teacher? Pwede man unta sturyahan lng among the group! Kung dili niya gusto mag report, nag sulti lng unta siya... tutal, nia naman siyay nahimo. Pero wala, wala!! Ambot niya ui... naghunahuna unta siya no, before niya tu gihimo! Nahadlok na hinuon ang among teacher - naunsa na man diay among grupo! Xetxetxet. Pero kaluoy pud sa akong groupmate, wala na siyay makauban sa block. Kang kinsa man gud na na sala... tsk tsk tsk

On a lighter note, we had fun in English (YES MONDAY PA ANG OLYMPICS THINGY!!) and in Lit (lol @ Joyce... hahahah) Math is still Math, though. Naligaw kami sa Intact (like, whaaaaat?? Sa SOM classroom pala tayo??) pero good thing nlng na hindi pa kami ganun ka-late. :) Ang saya ng brainteasers na un... (ang slow ko doon sa prisoners thingy though.. hahaha)

Nag GA kami sa RnD Department of CompSat, kaso nga lang, naglaho ang mga blockmates ko. o_O O_O O_o Ang pumunta lng (after some time) ay sina Enzo, Stef, Joyce and Raffy. Yehey. At least pumunta, I know, but wherearetheothers???

Oh well. Un na un. Nag heart to heart kami ni Joyce until about 8pm (wah sorry nagabihan ka na! XD) and nag cheer practice kami dito sa dorm until 12:30pm.

OUCH, my back hurts.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

-1 chocolate bar

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This is not happening to me.

I am cramming, for the first time. EVER. (At least here, in ADMU).

Thanks to my being a procrastinator (and thanks to Filipino for EXISTING..), I ended up with English, Lit and Math homework. Plus may IAC pa sa dorm. Tapos may GA pa bukas (which means late ako sa cheer practice) Like.... whaaaaaaaaaaat.....

This is serious. I'm actually eating my chocolate. (Chocolate = coffee [I don't drink coffee] = emergency CRAM FOOD) I'm gonna stay up laaaaaaate...

This is such a useless entry.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Canteen.

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The stench immediately hit me when I first set foot in the Cervini Cafe. Ah, wait, stench isn't exactly the correct word, as the smell was not that repugnant as I had expected. No, it smelled of stale air, a hint of something cooking, and Pancit Canton.

I gave my pack of Pancit Canton at the counter, all the while grumbling about the inhuman P10 cooking fee. I also said something about cooking the noodles well, as the last time I had Pancit Canton, I was practically crunching noodles.

I grabbed a glass of cold water on my way to the table, whilst stepping on a foot pedal that wasn't there. I realized my mistake before the others in line caught on, however.

I had saved myself a seat on the way in, and now I saw that the table in which I was supposed to be occupying was... well, tilted. I gave it a few experimental shakes, half-expecting to hear wood creak, but I was mistaken - the frame was metal...

I sat down anyway, setting my glass down with loud clunk, and I gazed blankly at the ceiling. Faint as it was, I noticed several wafts of smoke made visible by the bright fluorescent lamps. I caught a whiff of the oh-so-popular Burger Sizzling which everybody orders thanks to the P65 fee. I leaned back, wanting to relax a bit before my food came, and I nearly lost my balance, as apparently, I had forgotten that I was sitting on a stool.

To my right, I heard laughter and chatter; a large group had merged tables and they were having fun, banging their glasses against the table without a care in the world. From here, I could see that it was they who ordered the Sizzling, which was odd since it was well past lunchtime. They were all wearing the same thing, too. Black slacks and a polo for the boys... A beige-ish blouse and an orange-ish skirt which resembled a tablecloth for the girls... I knew that I should be repulsed by their odd fashion statement (considering this IS the Ateneo) but there was something about it that was oddly familiar... I caught a glimpse of the seal printed on one guy's front pocket...

I head a "ui, yoni!", followed by a slap on the table not too far from where I sat. I immediately turned around, and what greeted me was a grinning face. His smile was so infectious that I couldn't help but grin myself, although I wasn't quite sure why. A clap on my back followed, and my eyes widened - just who was-?

My small, rickety table had extended, and I was seated at its helm. I saw faces... familiar yet unfamiliar at the same time, grinning and joking with one another, before them were plates previously inhabited by Pancit Canton. I couldn't quite see them clearly, however. It was like they were there.. yet they were not... at the same time. Snippets of conversation wafted down to me.. Words like 'research', 'lab reports', 'PFLG', 'mambo' and 'green notebook' struck a particular note inside of me, and I wanted to join in their chatter but I can't - something.. was stopping me...

They were wearing the same uniform that I had described a while ago - that much I can make out. To my surprise, I was wearing something similar! I opened my mouth to speak, and I found that I could! These were my friends, my nakama, and we were all together, laughing and joking, like old times.

My Pancit Canton had gotten cold, as I gazed past the defining walls of the cafe space, my mind trapped in the memories of the past.
----
A few notes:
There is no foot pedal, stool, people in Pisay uniform, or Burger Steak Sizzling in Cervini Cafe. Yes, I was imagining things. Yes, I was delusional.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

PISAY-UP-ADMU dinner: the first among many

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Lingawa ui!

Opportunity costs:

• SOSE night
• dinner with mom
• One Piece marathon
• sleep
  

That simple KFC dinner (despite the fact na tumaas na NAMAN ang prices) was well worth it. :D

That reunion was a bit far from what I had expected. (And a good thing, too!) I was expecting to burn some serious cash on some obscenely priced food in a restaurant (the Ateneo stereotype is eeeeating my braaaaainz) or make laag or mall or whatever.

YAY FOR KFC KATIPUNAN!

I was also somewhat expecting that I be distant from the group, as majority of teh PISAY PEOPLE were from UP. Quite the opposite happened. :D Everybody talked to everybody. Grabeh, ang daming nakikisali sa pics (papicture with wayne!!) and I realized na... I MISS EVERYONE! Whoo! Grabe pala talaga ang pinagsamahan natin sa Pisay! Kahit na hindi ko naging classmate/close ang iba, friends pa rin! Whooo!!

//(singit ko lang) Waaahhh!! Linus... miss na kita, grabe... :D Wala ka talagang kaparehas dito sa ADMU!

I'm just a bit sad na hindi kompleto ang Pisay people... I was looking forward to chatting with Anna-chan (regarding the course that I would've taken, had I chosen UP over ADMU. Oh! And anime. And the dorm elections. And her most recent plans for world domination).

That's that! Can't wait for the next reunion!!


"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

MRT Rush Hour killz.

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Have you ever wondered what a sardine feels when it's trapped in its small can?

I haven't. And so life decides to spare me the effort by actually putting me in a similar situation.

METRO MANILA IS SO HUGE IT KILLZ YA.

I'd like to see normal, flat roads, like the ones back in Davao, kthx. I long for NORMAL straightforward routes, or at least one ride or two ride trips. I'd like to ride on taxis which don't charge obscene prices. Here we got LRTs and MRTs which, although they are very cheap and very fast means of transportation, mimic a can of sardines where hardly any room for breathing (let alone moving) is left to the poor passenger. -_-

So yeah. Kaming duha ni mama nagsakay mi ug LRT-MRT DEADLY combination. Napisat intawon mi. Maayo nlng gani na naay Chowking Soup for the Soul (LOL factor) na among mapaminawan para ma distract mi sa kaguot ug sa kainit sa sulod sa train.

I so despise leaving Quezon City.
"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

A game for liars.

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Liar Game.
This manga gone drama series is one of the best ever written and made, if you are a fan of psychological warfare. :D

It is, in my humble opinion, equal to, or even superior to the popular Death Note series. Like death note, its main characters are brimming with intelligence - forming solutions to situations anyone would have deemed impossible. What you thought was the end for the protagonists would actually turn out to be their splendid come-from-behind win. Unlike Death Note, however, there are no supernatural references in the story. Just a lot of money [100 million yen] and, well, Liars.

The Liar Game works by giving its players 100 million yen - and this is to be returned at the end of the round. Basically, what the players do is try to steal each other's money, as anything they manage to steal, will be kept for themselves. Anything they lose... will become a debt.

The method of trickery changes with every round. The first round is a one-on-one, while the succeeding rounds involve a group of people trying to split the pool of prize money offered. Things get a little tricky when our main character (who is so stupidly honest, by the way) drags in a genius swindler to assist her in the game. More twists and turns occur as the characters try to outwit each other, using psychology (oh yes!) and math (oh no!).

Ultimately, the series poses the question "Are men to be trusted?". In this world full of lies and deceit, just what is the point of being honest?

Fast-paced and exciting, this short drama series is one of the best you'll ever see.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

MIDTERMZ

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I'm going to take my math midterms tomorrow. Along with the rest of the Math18a&b. Wish us luck (I definitely need it). And instead of studying my butt off today (no class... woot) I chose to lounge around instead. My stash of food is diminishing at an alarmingly fast pace, leaving me to wonder if I will make it to the end of the week before totally running out. My desk is already twice as messy, as the Asus EEE + mouse + keyboard was joined with sample math tests, a math book, and piles and PILES of scratch paper. I had solved my scratch paper problem about a week ago (I never seemed to have enough) by solving math problems on my photocopied Filipino readings. I'm threating to expand my territory to the LIT readings as well. (oh noes!) I take up a lot of space while solving, you see, for, in addition to my rather large script, I often dive into a problem before properly examining it, hence resulting in a paper that is 80% erasure, 20% solution.

oh crep. I take pity on the unlucky professor who gets to check my oh-so-NEAT and ORGANIZED paper.

One more thing - I wanted to avoid math as much as possible, and so I workED on the CS project.

St00pid, st00pid me.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Upper left corner.

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This is an Lit 13. Requirement. Posted it for kicks. Enjoy.

I am a very territorial person – I want my space and room to be defined clearly, such that any person passing by my space will know to whom it belongs. I've always felt uncomfortable when people move my things or when they even touch them. I've always liked things where they were; that is, where I put them.

Fate decided to toy with me, however. My whole family shared a single room. It was big enough to be counted as two bedrooms, but the design was to optimize the airconditioning capacity of the airconditioning unit. :D My parents occupied half, and my sister and I occupied the second half, a large white cabinet serving as the wall in between. There was only one long table where we could study, and only one other counter in which we can dump stuff on. The only space that I could messy up with nobody bothering me to do otherwise was the top bunk of the double decked bed me and my sister shared. It was a small space, but I loved it.

My beddings would change every 2-3 weeks or so, but I always picture my bed in bright checkered cloth – an old bed sheet from when I was still a kid. The wall in which I could prop up myself against was adorned with religious pictures – remnants of calendars we would get from the church. Above me was an exhaust fan which purpose was to drain the afternoon heat – but so far it only succeeded in disturbing my concentration. Near my feet lay a few issues Reader's Digest magazines dated anywhere between 1997 – 1999. Sometimes, a few library books would join their company. I would read those on boring afternoons when sleep would not come; I had exhausted all the books in the house, after all.

On hectic school days, the foot of my bed would be filled with half-finished homework, HUGE textbooks (usually Biology and Chemistry texts), and a pile of clothing waiting to be chucked into the laundry bin. My special place becomes my study space, my cram space, when my mother no longer allowed me outside to study. More often than not however, sleep drags me under before I could get a chance to fix the mess I had created in the process, and so I end up with crumpled half - finished homework. Apparently I am not a still sleeper. Sometimes, two out of the three pillows that I had with me when I went to sleep somehow end up in the floor. Sometimes, even my blanket joins them. I would wake up in the middle of the night just to retrieve my things, only to lose them again when morning comes.

I miss my special place. I left it, back in Davao. It really was the only place where I could connect with myself, and be honest with myself. Upon my arrival here in Metro Manila, and subsequently in the Ateneo Dormitories, I knew I had to find something similar to that special space. And so far, I haven't had any luck in finding any.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Rorrim fo Desire.

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It was dark. The only source of illumination came from a single window, where mooonbeams fall softly unto the stone floor below. Not enough light to see. Curiously enough, when I peered into the mirror, the image reflected upon it seemed to be emitting light. Not that it mattered, for what I saw in it was far more interesting.

Home was what I saw. Not just the house itself, not just the city from whence I came, but the people living in it. My family. There they were, front and center. Grinning madly at me. And carrying various dishes only my mother could have produced. My mouth begins to water. Madly. The reflection moves animatedly, but my ears could not hear their voices. It's a mirror, not a TV. I chided myself, and I settled against the stone pillar for support. My eyes begin to water. My family.. my family is waiting for me.

The background shimmers into the familiar academe of my high school. The mirror seemed wider to me, although I am sure it had not changed its width. I saw my old schoolmates, my friends, the people whom I owe some of the best and some of the most wonderful experiences in life in all those times I shared with them. To one side, I saw stacks of lab reports, quizzes, and research proposals grinning at me like old friends (grinning evilly, more like it). I couldn't help but remember all the effort I put into them, just to survive this dangerous race that was Pisay. Ah, how I miss those days!

But alas, time forbids our long awaited reunion. It flows in one direction, regrettably so. Saddened as I am, I know I must move on. No matter how much I will for time to be otherwise, the way I remembered home will always be a bit different from the way I had remember it. Nothing in this universe is constant. My desire will have to remain as it is: a desire.

I quietly left the presence of the Mirror of Erised.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Touch the color of...

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---->Kinawat gikan sa http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm
You are under considerable stress and you are almost about to 'blow your top' but you are fortunate enough to be able to exert control. Control is the name of the game and it is so good to realise that whatever the situation may be a this time - it will pass. You need to get away from everything for a while and if you do, you will find that, strangely enough, it will seem that most of your problems and situations will seem to wash away, just as the sea may wash away 'footprints' in the sand.

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.

You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realise these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

There is an inherent fear that you may be prevented from achieving the things you want. This activates your subconscious desire for peace of mind and mental security. It is increasingly obvious to you that the environment that you are in is not conducive to your well-being and so you are seeking fresh fields - somewhere free of conflict where you can RELAX and THINK.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Sunset.

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Sunsets are romantic. They are beautiful. Have you ever witnessed one? The instance in which day meets night, and the sky is a-flush with orange, indigo, violet, and finally inky black as the moon and stars rule and the sun no longer. In my experience, it is best to watch a sunset when one is by the beach, when ones view is largely unobstructed, and if it is, mountains and hills are the ones responsible, heightening ones experience as the radiant colors of a sunset take effect. One would gaze at the spectacle without end, holding his breath he witnesses its end. Beautiful. There is no other word that could describe the peace and tranquility one can get from merely watching a sunset.

A sunset... in Quezon City is the most depressing thing I have ever seen. However, it's beauty was not tainted in anyway; in fact, it was intensified - its orange was brighter, the rays of light, more distinct. It was as beautiful as any sunset. What makes it so depressing.. is the looming darkness. Buildings, not mountains obstructed the view. And one cannot see the ocean, that body of water whose salty spray brings calmness to ones spirit. Buildings, buildings all around! Their shadows are made even longer by the sunset, bring night even quicker to the denizens below. A feeling of insignificance, a feeling of utter separation from nature can be felt. What of it, you might ask. What of it, if what really matters is the sunset itself?

True, the sunset may have never changed, but its meaning; what it means to be, did.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

I steal surveys. OM NOM NOM

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Out of boredom, ninakaw ko ang survey na ninakaw ni Karla galing kay Kim na galing kay Janille.

o_O

1. Name someone who can always make you laugh?
- Bernaaah! I miss you. :'(

2. What were you doing at 10:00 this morning?
-netting. Attempting to study for math exam. Failing at it.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
-went shopping at Rustan's. Malapit na maubos ang shampoo ko eh. hehehe.

4. What did you do last night?
-watched 3 plays. OMG GAY.

5. What color is your hair brush?
-one's blue, the other's brown

6. Have you text voted for an American Idol?
-wouldn't even if i could. will rally on net though.

7. Hot tea or Iced tea?
iced tea. hot tea = ugh

8. What was the weather like today?
-mainit sa umaga, karon murag kaulanon

9. Where did your last hug take place?
-when my family left. damn. long time ago.

10. What are you excited for?
-COMPSAT GA!!

12. Closest thing to you that is green?
-t shirt ko rin!

14. Last person you spoke to?
Karina my roommate

15. Are you very random?
-oh yes so very much OMG naruto!

16. Do you want to get your hair cut?
-already did

17. Are you over the age of 25?
-thankfully no

18. Do you talk a lot?
-noon? oh yes.

19. Does your screen name have an x in it?
-yex

20. Do you know anyone named Stephanie?
-yup. blockmate

21. Do you make up your own words?
-ya mon

22. Are you ticklish?
-ya mon

23. Are your ears pierced?
-ya mon

24. Bar soap or body wash?
-bahr sop

25. Are you a jealous person?
-way more than you are.

26. What brand of shampoo do you use?
-h&s

27. Do you have curly hair?
-strit lng nman her ko

28. Where did you go today?
-school. rustans. BDO.

29. What 1 item do you always pick up at the grocery store?
-food.

30. What do you say a lot?
-gud, lagi, bitaw

31. Red or White Wine?
-red

33. What are you doing tonight?
-watch BLEACH

34. Who was your last missed call?
-mother goose

35. What should you be doing right now?
-sort my laundry.

36. Do you have a nickname?
-neonix

37. Are you a heavy sleeper?
-like oil!

38. What are you listening to?
-because of of you by Kelly Clarkson

39. Is there anyone you like right now?
-me

40. When was the last time you did the dishes?
-last night

41. Did you cry today?
nope, but i did so everyday last week

42. How big is your bed?
-singgol

43. Do you know someone with the same birthday as you?
-yup. neighbor.

44. How many pictures are hanging in the room you are in?
-in my corner = zero.

45. Does anyone like you?
-I like me

46. Do you collect anything?
-knowledge. char. nerd.

47. Last time you went on a date?
-never did.

48. What's written on your mouse pad?
-EPROSARTAN + HYDROCHLOROTHIAZIDE. O_O

49. Do you like coffee?
-nah

50. Do you know anyone in the military?
-anna? hahaha

51. Number of pillows you sleep with?
-3. wah ang isang pillow ko andun kay april!

52. Could you live without a computer?
-tried, but can't.

53. Favorite flavor of ice cream
-...strawberries and cream!



"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Challenge Essay: My Room

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My English teacher decided to give my class a headache (as if the 3 other papers we have to pass weren't bad enough), and ordered/requested/asked us to write another essay. Here are the rules:

• "My Room" essay must talk about -duh- your room.
• 100-150 words
• maximum of 10 words per sentence
• each form of (to be) verb can only be used twice, max.
• each channel of perception (sight, hearing, etc.) can only be used twice
• no adverbs allowed

Having done so, I tried to do this monstrous undertaking.

I can only hope I brought the piece justice.

My Room

Warm light floods the room. I see blue walls set against a white ceiling. I’m sitting on a chair that is flat and angular. The book in my hands reeks of new paper. I clutch my pen firmly; plastic tube digging into skin. The fan’s whirr distracts me from writing. I slouch as I write. A cold breeze slips in from the windows. The curtains flap aside to make way. Dust bunnies begin to migrate across the floor in droves. My eyelids begin to droop. I slip into bed and my back meets the firm mattress. I rest my head against soft pillows. The whirr becomes soothing instead. I close my eyes, and drift into sleep.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

A rather unfortunate series of events.

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My luck seemed to have failed me time again, as I found myself having to deal with the triple deadly dose of me locking my keys inside the cabinet, spilling juice on my Asus EEE and me having my cellphone stolen. YES, my old cellphone with the black and white screen (more like green and black, but anyway) GOT STOLEN. In marikina. Without my knowledge. Which..... you know, is better than getting threatened to give the guy the phone, but........ STILL. That phone held sentimental value, I'll have you know!

These things never and I mean NEVER, happen to me. They just don't. I've had years of cellphone care under my belt (btw, i didn't even remove the plastic on my /former/ phone) and I had THIS happen to me. It only happened while I was in Manila.

Now I don't know if this is a sign... a warning.. foreshadowing, if you will. But the fact that I'M HERE and I can't change my lot at will is something the cosmos has to consider.

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

Firsts

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Last week was my first week in Manila... and in ADMU as well. The week I'm in @ the moment is the first week of class. And... wow. I love my schedule!!

I still have to wake up early, although not as early as I used to in Pisay. My earliest class on MWFs is Fil 11, and that would be at 7:30am. On TThs, I have PE (Wushu) as my first class at 8am. After (almost) every subject, I get an hour long break (read: time to nap, take a bath [only on PE days], run to the dorm to grab anything I forgot, and/or cram) which comes in pretty handy!

And this schedule is GREAT, considering that my last class ends @ 1:30pm for MWs, and 3:30 for Fs, and 3:00 for Tths. Wee!

A definite PLUS when you're a CS major: 2 hour sessions twice a week in a computer lab (read: AIRCON) Whoo.

A definite MINUS when studying in the Ateneo (or in Manila, in general) is that everything costs WAY more. Like food. It's about P60, average. For one meal. (Although it's probably several levels higher than canteen food.

Another thing that costs a lot: books. Only now do I realize how lucky we were (and downright nuts) using books that cost THOUSANDS (the same books you find on the floor... or stepped on.. etc.). Isa pa, computer books cost a LOT. (WTH) The book our prof recommended was worth around 1.4k. UMAYGAD. I think I should negotiate if the java book(s) I own are already enough...

I'm still pondering on whether or not should I subscribe to dorm internet. It's 3k per sem.. and my roommates mentioned that it's fast. The only problem is that it's LAN. Like, cable based. And like, my corner is FAR from the network (slot? port? whatever). Wah. I can't visualize kung saan ko idadaan ang network cable. I settled for letting it pass under the beds, but it was still so very messy. I do believe I'll have to tape them down.T_T

The campus, however, has WIFI. Like, everywhere. The trouble is, I (so far) I can only connect to the WIFI at the (zen) garden. It's right across the campus cafeteria. Good, right? Except for the fact that upperclassmen use the place as their HANGOUT, everything is spiffy. T_T

In other news, I'm sorely missing the net. And davao. And my home (where I can slack off, haha). The Eliazo dorm (although pretty) needs a lot of getting used to.

WHEW. Wish me luck!

"On clear and peaceful nights like these,
There's nothing more I'd like to do
Than to lie down, under the heavens,
And to gaze at the stars with you...

-nEOnIX

oRsEM 2008

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